Long Island-based alt-soul artist Bobby Chucka premiered his debut album âctrl â alt â acptâ via Facebook Live on Nov. 1.
Over 5,000 users viewed the Facebook Live stream as they were audibly taken to a unique realm of music that had been two and half years in the making. On Nov. 25, the album was made available for purchase on Chuckaâs website.
âCtrl â alt â acptâ is a 26-track, hour-long sonic quest for acceptance as Chucka, a 2015 Oswego State graduate, crafts a complicated debut album to correspond with his complicated mind. The music is a canvas he utilizes to paint the many layers of his ever-evolving personality.
âI change shapes a lot, but not for you, I feel like water,â Chucka raps on the hook for the confident thumper âlike waterâ which houses the albumâs only feature in Chicago-based rapper Mick Jenkins.
The line in the albumâs third track serves as a bit of foreshadowing for the listener. Throughout the album, Chucka ventures through a perpetual identity crisis with emotions constantly fluctuating between bursts of pleasure seen on âbaby cakesâ and episodes of melancholy on âquiet down.â
âThe album was mostly about existence, or my small slice of existence and all the things that happen in it, good and bad,â Chucka said. âI wanted to be as honest and authentic as I could be, so I tried to use every element of the album to paint a picture of my current life.â
The concept of existence is explored through a prolonged conversation between Chucka and a close female friend. like Chucka, the friend finds it increasingly difficult to balance and understand her emotions and thoughts. The incredibly disjointed, yet insightful, conversation features discussions about death, failed relationships and the desire to creatively âexpress myself.â The intimacy sees Chucka shed his musical persona and allows himself to purely be Rob Dezendorf.
âThe problem wasnât that I didnât know who I was, the problem was I thought I was something. And Iâm not. Iâm everything,â Chucka said in âtalk 4.â
In March 2014, Chucka released his first project, âThe Blue Tapeâ a nine-track mixtape that spent a year in production. âThe Blue Tapeâ was an impressive arrival for Chucka in the hip-hop genre, as great strides were made in production on tracks such as âReal Boy RealEyesâ âAm I Right?â and âWe Cominâ After You.â
Two and a half years separate âThe Blue Tapeâ from âctrl â alt â acpt.â His days as the college boy party-hopper are gone, as he is the graduate invested in an ultra-focused lifestyle. Chuckaâs maturation resonates on âctrl â alt â acptâ both lyrically and sonically as a result. It is easier to classify this as a hip-hop album, although it would undermine Chuckaâs exceptional production. This is an experimental alt-soul album that fuses influences of electronica, neo-soul, nu-jazz, R&B and trip hop.
The sounds crafted are hauntingly captivating through their detached nature. Tracks like âghost rideâ and âalright aloneâ have more in common with the eccentric sounds of alternative groups Radiohead and Glass Animals than they do with any modern hip-hop act.
Then there is the more sensual and intimate song âovergrown,â a downbeat sedated love song, which would make the likes of Erykah Badu smile.
âI just want to stay at home, kick the covers on/Play your favorite song, while weâre making love,â Chucka sings in a sultry state on âovergrown.â
ââControl, alter, acceptâ is what [the albumâs title] stands for,â Chucka said. âAfter a lot of therapy, I learned that I had been dealing with most of my frustrations in life, in three stages. First, I was trying to control the situation… Second, I was trying to [alter] the situation… And lastly, my only option to ease my frustration and be at peace, was to accept my life for what it was and roll with it.â
The accept stage takes form at the back-end of the album, namely on the emotional ballad â4 uâ dedicated to his late mother.
âWhen I sing about you, no one to reach out to/Living life without you, heartache told me how to/Heal myself,â Chucka sings in a somber, reflective voice as this track is where he is able to form his most completed set of thoughts on the album. In many ways, the track is both therapeutic and revelatory.
âMusic has always been therapy for me and I hope thatâs what this is for the people who need it,â Chucka said. âThroughout the whole process my main goal was to think as little as possible and record only during bursts of creativity when I felt present in my thoughts. I also wanted to show people that itâs ok to be honest about yourself, even if itâs a little shocking. Our flaws are what make us interesting.â
âCtrl â alt â acptâ is an ambitiously crafted, discombobulated work in progress, like Chucka himself. The album feels incomplete for the album is very artistically jumbled. Yet this is forgiven for the authenticity Chucka brings, noting that this is nothing more than the complex beginning to an intriguing journey.






